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Dec.
22, 2004 :: 4:40 pm |
Kappa and
Ying
She of
no-name hiding in teh FUGLY orange hat that someone left
in the store nad never came back to claim, so I took it home.
:)
My babies, who are the best in the world.
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Nov.
19, 2004 :: 11:48 am |
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Oct.
23, 2004 :: 11:07 pm |
(23:03:55) LoVeLy CaRrOtS:
dammit they need a live chat where people can find taken
art...i'm so bored and I feel like busting some art theft
ass
(23:08:16) Banrai: heh
(23:12:05) Banrai: theres
some hardcore bullshit going on right now with this same bitch
accusing me yet again of stealing her shit.
23:12:33)
Banrai: really don't want to hear about art theft.
That's why I took down all my art. I'm tired of being
harassed for some girl stealing MY
braingchildren.
(23:13:16) LoVeLy CaRrOtS: that's not cool,
have you reported her for art theft and
harrassment?
(23:13:53) Banrai: Yeah, but nothing ever gets
done because she's a better artist than me, and the better
artist is ALLLWASY the one in the right.
(23:14:17) LoVeLy
CaRrOtS: goddamn...
(23:14:37) Banrai: Yeah.
(23:14:58)
Banrai: So I just fucking give up, I don't care anymore. I'm
sick of not being able to upload ANYTHING without getting an
OMG STOLENZ comment on it
(23:15:18) LoVeLy CaRrOtS:
ugh
(23:15:34) LoVeLy CaRrOtS: just report the comment and
ignore them and shit, i'll report the stuff too
(23:15:43)
Banrai: it's not comments
(23:15:52) LoVeLy CaRrOtS:
IMs?
(23:16:00) Banrai: she's got her own site, she's just
like.. I guess sending out her minions to bother me and IM me
harassing stuff and that shit
(23:16:09) LoVeLy CaRrOtS:
ugh....
(23:16:13) LoVeLy CaRrOtS: that's
horrid
(23:16:18) Banrai: Yeah.
(23:16:26) LoVeLy
CaRrOtS: stab them in the face
(23:17:08) Banrai:
heh
(23:17:12) Banrai: Sadly, it's not that
simple
(23:17:59) LoVeLy CaRrOtS: I wish it was, I have
your back man, if someone IMs you while i'm on, tell me their
name and i'll make them feel dumb and cry
(23:19:13) LoVeLy
CaRrOtS: no one should fuck with you because you rock...and
they do not
(23:19:54) Banrai: heh.
(23:21:15) Banrai:
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v491/Banrai/dd92b934.jpg
(23:21:21)
Banrai: that's teh oldest drawing I have of my character
Aido
(23:21:26) Banrai: and it's from.. I don't even
know
(23:21:45) LoVeLy CaRrOtS: so cuuuuuute!
(23:22:13)
Banrai: http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v491/Banrai/gremwyve.jpg
(23:22:17)
Banrai: that's another of the same species
(23:22:28)
LoVeLy CaRrOtS: hmm
(23:22:36) LoVeLy CaRrOtS: i'd guess
around 97 man....
(23:23:06) Banrai: http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v491/Banrai/derra333.jpg
(23:23:11)
Banrai: a little newer, there
(23:23:48) Banrai: http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v491/Banrai/derra333.jpg
(23:23:50)
Banrai: the most recent.
(23:24:31) Banrai: And this, this
is the person's character that's run me off the
internet:
http://img.photobucket.com/albums/v491/Banrai/hist-ken-sk.jpg
(23:24:36)
Banrai: What do you think?
(23:24:50) LoVeLy CaRrOtS: I
really don't think they look alike
(23:25:00) LoVeLy
CaRrOtS: arm wings have been in art since the
egyptians
(23:25:10) Banrai: Well the rest of the fucking
world thinks I'm a thief.
(23:25:25) LoVeLy CaRrOtS: they
can blow my giant cock because you arent'
(23:25:28) LoVeLy
CaRrOtS: *aren't
(23:27:12) Banrai: *sighs* I just don't
know what to do.
(23:27:49) LoVeLy CaRrOtS: ignore them,
they're stupid children
(23:27:53) LoVeLy CaRrOtS: and
you're a smart woman
(23:30:01) Banrai: You hav eno idea,
though, how it makes me feel, to have these things that I
bring out of my heart and soul distroyed and shat upon by some
bitch... What it's like to see the raped version of my
characters being drawn FOR her by other people, the same
people that call me thief. They have no idea that this shit is
mine. And it hurts so bad. That's why I've just.. given up.
Left.
(23:31:36) LoVeLy CaRrOtS: you can leave but never
give up, a bitch stole me once, a character I made to
represent every part of me...someone that was actually my
imaginary friend when I was younger, and my school got me in
trouble with UIL because they said I stole her
design
(23:32:21) LoVeLy CaRrOtS: it's fucked up and it's
wrong
(23:32:51) Banrai: :/
(23:33:10) LoVeLy CaRrOtS:
no one should do that to you, you know? but they do, but to
ignore them is to beat them.
(23:33:20) Banrai: I just...
I'm so tired of fighting. And she does this shit to make me
angry, has been doing it since I FIRST showed up on the
internet (when I went by Aido, before this BITCH started
stealing from me), and I don't want to take it anymore, but
I'm not strong enough to stand up and stop it
(23:34:23)
LoVeLy CaRrOtS: well then don't
(23:34:25) LoVeLy CaRrOtS:
i'll do it
(23:34:41) LoVeLy CaRrOtS: i'll fuck her up
because you're my friend and you know what, that's not
happening.
(23:35:59) Banrai: :/ Text over the internet
can't exactally hurt someone
(23:36:07) Banrai: well, I
can't say that. Because it sure as hell has hurt me. When I
first got really into posting my art this girl showed up, and
stole my identity, and then accused me of doing the same to
her. It's been ongoing for fucking YEARS. I'm tired of being
accused of stealing MY OWN GODDAMN NAME THAT I CAME UP WITH
WHEN I WAS FUCKING 5. *fumes* I just don't know what to do,
because I'm so broken over this shit. The ONLY reason everyone
is all OMG she's the REAL artist, you're the thief is because
1) She's a better artist than me and 2) she has a lOT more
drawings of her character, simply becuase I gave up and made
Banrai, and hoped she wouldn't copy her,
too.
For anyone that
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Oct.
23, 2004 :: 10:07 am |
| And part of me is somewhat
disgusted by all of it- observing silently in the background,
melting back into space -away from the public. I don't even
want to go to school today; why should I? Its a fsking
Saturday. {Alack, you have work to do, Dearheart} {i know.}
You pause for a minute, you stop and observe; with narrowed
eyes, taking in each detail, line by line you absorb these
images one by one, commiting them to memory- these lines that
look like yours and these lines that look like another's. Its
not plagarizim, but its unoriginal. Wait, then what is
original? What is true? Its all been done before, overdone
even; things are dependant on the hand and the mind for the
execution of the work, blahblahblah-
(yousaythistoyourselfandyousaythistoothers;whyisitsohardtobelieve;youwanttobeleive;youdo)
No. Should I be angry? Do I have the right to be disgruntled?
Yea, probably. Its a free country. Whatev. Hackles go up, you
go down, somethingsomething, no. This is silly. And trite. And
I suppose that's the price to pay for being on DA. Plus its
all fake; it's all the same, a constant unoriginal state of
mind. I swear, why isn't any of this original? Going through
120 pages in less than a month, flipping through each page,
glaring: the same, the same the same; that's all I can see.
Yours looks like that which looks like another's which looks
like something crumpled up in a pathetic, somewhat heapish
form along the side of 45N that a starving, emaciated turkey
vulture wouldn't even consider to touch. If all these books
were lost would it effect me? For a moment, I could imagine
myself being slightly crushed that my life, in 17 books so far
are gone, since these images are by me, they are a part of me,
thus books gone = part of myself gone. Or so a simple equation
would follow. But I could get up and do it again, something
better? Something...Mothersuckingfish, you had trouble with
one point perspective, when was it? Tuesday? Oh yea, and you
made the same upsucking mistake two days later. Live and
learn? No. Screw up. How the hell do you expect to make it
anywhere when you effed up one point perspective. This is
middle school art I cirriculum. You are not in middle school.
This is serious. People get hurt. Can't you be
creative/dynamic/original/better? Avjk. {You made it this far.
You can go further.} {can I rly? pft. "this far" is relative.
so very, very relative.} Push/turn/spin/create: get out of
there in four years. Get published. Get a masters. Get an
internship. Get a career by twenty. Do something original.
Stop talking about it. Do something. Get better.
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15, 2004 :: 8:37 am |
| Zer is banned from DA. ;.;
wtf | |
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Jul.
29, 2004 :: 3:12 pm |
Well most of you know about
the shit that happened a while back with Mike making me screw
him... Well, come to find out, now apparantly we're banned
from going up to the Morning Dew (the only place we ever
really hung out) because one of Mike's friends went to the
owner and made up a BUNCH of shit, about how the reason I
wasn't pressing charges was because I was lying and wasn't man
enough to just come out and say that I willingly screwed him.
How do I know this? I just talked to the 'friend' that did
that. And apparantly not only that, but now Mike IS allowed
back up at the 'Dew. And from what I hear from Jeff (the
'friend') most of Jason's friends are in agreement that we
SHOULDN'T be allowed back up there. That they'd rather have
that... scheming.... LYING... Piece of SHIT up there to be
their little 'prince' in the vampire game, than have us, good,
paying patrons. Whatever.
Jason was fine with this, to
start with. But when I tell him this... he's not going to be
happy at all.
Maybe since all this shit is happening
like this, we'll end up going closer to the mountains. I don't
know how much longer we're going to be staying in this stupid
city, seeing as how there's nothing really tying us here,
anymore.
I just want to curl up and cry. This is the
stupidist shit ever. I'm seriousley thinking about reinstating
the charges aginst Mike, again... But I just don't know what
to do. I feel so... alone, so empty. So fucking
lost.
Snowhawk, you were right. More bad is coming from
me not pressing charges than good. I never should have
listened to the Detective... She was the one that made me
really loose hope in all of this, telling me that most often
times cases like this are lost due to lack of evidence. Among
other shit.
*sighs*
I'm tired. Tired of all
of this. Tired of having to put up with this SHIT.
I've
been writing again... Or rather, editing AVP because Mum says
theres a publisher she knows that's willing to read it and
perhaps help me sell it. Which makes me really happy. I've
been re-writing parts of it, making changes to other parts.
When I'm done I'll post it (probably in MastLeviathan) if I
can find a disc or something to put it on.
I think I'm
going to go try to find some books on anatomy, to keep me busy
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Jul.
27, 2004 :: 11:59 am |
My internet has been cut off.
>.<
Dude, Zer. There's a bunch of retards
harassing be because OMG I COPIEDZ YOUZ WITH PINKUH. WTF.
Ugh. Damn library | |
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Jul.
4, 2004 :: 11:10 am |
Ok, so here's how it
happened.
'Bout 6 or so, we got to Norm's house, and we
were greeted at the door by Derek and Annie, who were both
already three sheets to the wind. Derek immideately gave me a
shot of Goldshliger or something, it had little flecks of gold
in it, and tasted like cinnamon. Good shit, so I had another
shot of that. Then he gave me some mellon-tasting shit, and
Annie and I shared a cup of that. Then everyone came back from
the pool, and I had a shot of Southern Comfort and another
shot of some NASTY shit Richard gave me. Then Annie and I went
out to smoke, and Derek came too. By this point I was starting
to get quite tipsy, and Annie and I ended up making out on the
porch while Derek watched. Then we somehow managed to get back
inside, and I had 4 shots of Absolute while no one was
watching, then someone gave me another shot of the gold shit,
and another shot of... something else, i don't remember what
it was. Then Jason took Annie and I down to the pool, and
Annie and I almost drownded ourselves, then Jason had to bring
us back over to the little stairs, where Annie, Derek, Jason
and myself did some very bad things. ^_^; I guess I had sex
with Annie, but I don't remember. So by lesbian terms, yeah,
Annie and I screwed. Then I remember being on the couch and
grabbing Richard's crotch (Richard being VERY not-straight).
And I think I made out with Derek, too, but I don't remember.
Then Annie and I were trying to sleep in Norm's bed, but she
rolled over and knocked me out of bed and into a table, which
then in turn went into Jason. This was after I puked my guts
out. So Jason brought me home, and I think I hit on Narcissus,
the stripper that lives upstairs. But I don't remember. And
then I was up all night being sick, and at some point Jason
went to get Annie, and Annie and I layed in bed untill Alexis
came to get her. Then I was sick a lot more, and slept for
like.. an hour. Then Kasan went and got me ice cream and then
we went to get Richard this morning. And we hung out over
there. But I've just started to really sober up.
Kudos
to anyone that actually read all
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Jun.
29, 2004 :: 11:22 am |
Well... made a new
layout just for the hell of it... After talking with all
of Kasan's friends, we've come to the conclusion that what
Mike did to me was technically rape, because after I said no
he pressured me into screwing him... Kasan is so pissed at
him, as is all of his friends... all of them think I should
press charges aginst him because... yeah.
I don't know.
I've got a lot of thinking to do. | |
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Jun.
27, 2004 :: 10:15 am |
| Rape is a very, very bad
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16, 2004 :: 6:57 am |
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I
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Jun.
3, 2004 :: 12:36 pm |
For anyone that had any doubt
that I was going to hell before, I give you my new and
improved rat:
He
was supposed to be red, but he kept trying to lick himself so
I ended up washing him off early.
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May.
24, 2004 :: 11:15 pm |
Turned
Kasan into a Red Wolf. :)
The
full of that picture of Eouen I posted a while
back.
Haize,
Daaa and Pinkuh's mom.
Tyberish.
Acryllic paints.
Dhio
and Keir
Reijt.
A
random Dragon Taur. | |
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May.
22, 2004 :: 10:33 am |
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19, 2004 :: 11:36 am |
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